tanning

Every time I go to the beach or pool and I see what I did to my skin I think that can't be good for me. I went sailing last weekend with my boyfriend and his family while he's in town for a few days from the military, and my shoulders are pretty crispy. Even though I applied sun screen, the sun seemed to still get me.

I definitely think I look better with a nice tan but why is this? Because society has molded that into the perfect skin tone? That Barbie doll look. Blonde hair, dark skin, big boobs. I am fairly certain the pain of this sun burn and the damage I am doing to my skin is not worth the perk of

fitting into society's idea of attractive. I don't need to impress anyone, I have a wonderful boyfriend and am happy with myself. I don't want to end up like this lady.

One time I woke up the day after I wen to the beach with a swollen eye that I couldn't open. The doctor said it was sun poisoning and told me to put some ice on it and it went away in a few minutes. Just goes to show you how powerful the Florida sun is.

I don't plan on being a beach bum over summer solely to tan anymore. If I get tan from being there and having fun that's cool, but it's no longer a concern to me. I probably sound like a feminist right about now, but it's okay!

TI goes to jail

On March 27th, 2009 rapper TI was sentenced to 366 days in prison after pleading guilty to weapon charges from events back in 2007. I don't know if even of you have been able to catch an episode of his program on MTV, but it seems to me like he has finally learned his leason and will have his life back on track when he is released. He is ready to change.

"While I'm not looking forward to being incarcerated, I have a long road of
redemption to travel, I am dedicated and committed to that. I'm looking forward
to turning this negative time in my life into a positive. I'd like to thank God
for blessing me with a second chance in life and success. I realize I completely
violated the law, and I take it very seriously."

When what I got out of the show, he seems like a good hearted person that just got caught in the wrong crowd. He treats his kids nice and helped 7 kids get their future in check and guided them off the streets. It pains me to see his little boy cry when they mention daddy going away for a little while. I remember when I was 7 my dad served a year in prison and it broke my heart. I can trace my relationship with him now to him not being there then. I was daddy's little girl when I was young, and after he was released I distanced myself from him and it sadly remained that way. Jail is sometimes what needs to happen for people to snap out of their stupidity. It worked for my dad, hopefully it works for TI.

Trying to get back on my feet

The last couple weeks have been insane. Working full time and going to college just about consumes my life and is about all I can take. Last Tuesday I was going to grab some folders out of my car from the Sun Dome when I noticed someone had forced my window have way down. My stomach fell and my heart started to race. When I sat down stared at my broken dash and wires from my missing head unit while a thousand emotions flooded my body. First I was mad at myself for not getting my alarm fixed, then I was mad at the cold-hearted criminals that broke into my car, then I was mad that no one reported this when someone had to have seen it (it was the middle of the day and I was parked in the first row). The police couldn't do anything because there is no cameras in the Sun Dome parking lot. So if you want to murder somebody, there you go. After replacing everything they stole (sunglasses, ipod, head unit, Cd's), it ended up costing me $500. Needless to say I am taking the faceplate off of my CD player whenever I leave the car, and double checking the windows and locks.

Recovering from the break in consumed most of my day Tuesday, so I figured Thursday after they installed my new CD player I would get to relax. My mother called me hysterical while I was sitting in best buy and told me my father was just arrested because someone in my neighborhood stole the yellow tag of the plate and when the cop saw this they pulled him over. His license was revoked when I was a little girl so they arrest him. There goes $200 to bail him out and a night waiting in jail. Now if he has to do time I will be stuck with the mortgage and other bills because he is the sole provider.

I really hope things will look up for me. My grades are starting to nose dive and I doing all I can to keep my head above the water.